Sucks
you know what sucks... today sucks. it's december 26th and i havent talked to my boyfriend since the 23rd.. and see he was sick that day so it's not cool. I feel so distant. I feel like he's mad at me. I feel uncared about.. but it's probably nothing of that sort.. things with my friends are driving me crazy and i have so much stress right now I could just faint.. everything is so complicated, and i feel like no one cares. I feel like nothing's going my way. This Christmas was way better than last Christmas.. but it was still a weird memory of Christmas. Ex-Boyfriends bug me. They really do. I wish that they didn't...but they do. They lie to me..but hey I lie right back to them.. it's like an unwritten law.. it's impossible to stay completely friendly and all happy with your exboyfriend unless there is still some chemistry there or there never was any chemistry there... Well you know what.. all this sux. Cuz i dont wanna feel stress with my BOYFRIEND and EXBOYFRIEND.. i just want that phone to ring. I want the caller Id to say "Siegle,Angela 343-2899" but it won't.. and it isn't.. maybe he's still sick.. maybe i need to rest.. i want to have him over for new years.. i want this to work out.. but i don't know how im gonna achieve anything. i feel depressed, but I'm not. I want to be happy, but I can't. I have weird feelings in my stomach...